the end of an era

I have learnt a lot over these past three years. About myself, about the plants, about sustainability, about the world. And I am happy that I did this even though I am filled with feelings of shame and regret. Regret that I didn't give it my best, shame that I did the same thing over and over again.

I will go in to this year of internship with eagerness to learn, but I must say that already is the feeling that I will not be there to do fifth year overshadowing everything. I am thankful for the wonderful ECA and that I had a chance to go to to Australia as a part of my education. But when something doesn't feel right we have to think about wht is wrong and how we can move on.

See you out there landscapers!

Charlotta

"sittin' on the dock of a bay. wastin' time."

Oh! I'm so excited about this year. First of all just being in Australia has opened up so many things in me. Hopefully I can figure out how to utilize them to their fullest!

The classes I take here are so totally different from the ones at ECA. First of all there are so much more people. (One class I take has more than 200 students in it..) And secondly, it seems that they are more theoretical. I have one design course and it's as big as the other three. Interesting.

I'm taking Landscape Design 5, Architecture And The City, Landscape Construction and Interior Design History. The last one I had to change to just because my first choice of Environments In Transition clashed with Construction... Hrm.

Today second week of classes start and I'm as excited as ever! Will upload more portfolio stuff soon, first I need to write a reflective review on the Industrial Revolution.

welcome

Sitting outside enjoying the sun thinking about all the things I've done over the last couple of years at ECA. It's overwhelming in a way. The first feeling that hits me is sddly dissapointment. I'm really quite dissapointed and ashamed of my work load. It's like I know I could have done better but for some reason I haven't. Hopefully I can use this blog to investigate why this has happened and if everything becomes clear to me I hope I can use that knowledge to become the better, more serious landscape architect I know I can be.

The structure for my inputs into this blog doesn't follow a definitive pattern, I'm gonna go through them as they appear to me in my memory or heart. If I'm having a good day I might write about a good project, if I'm feeling down I might take one of those that I'm not very proud of. We'll see what happens. This blog will be a reflection of how unstructured and haphazard my everyday life is. And hopefully I will learn more about myself by doing it that way as well.