the end of an era

I have learnt a lot over these past three years. About myself, about the plants, about sustainability, about the world. And I am happy that I did this even though I am filled with feelings of shame and regret. Regret that I didn't give it my best, shame that I did the same thing over and over again.

I will go in to this year of internship with eagerness to learn, but I must say that already is the feeling that I will not be there to do fifth year overshadowing everything. I am thankful for the wonderful ECA and that I had a chance to go to to Australia as a part of my education. But when something doesn't feel right we have to think about wht is wrong and how we can move on.

See you out there landscapers!

Charlotta

welcome

Sitting outside enjoying the sun thinking about all the things I've done over the last couple of years at ECA. It's overwhelming in a way. The first feeling that hits me is sddly dissapointment. I'm really quite dissapointed and ashamed of my work load. It's like I know I could have done better but for some reason I haven't. Hopefully I can use this blog to investigate why this has happened and if everything becomes clear to me I hope I can use that knowledge to become the better, more serious landscape architect I know I can be.

The structure for my inputs into this blog doesn't follow a definitive pattern, I'm gonna go through them as they appear to me in my memory or heart. If I'm having a good day I might write about a good project, if I'm feeling down I might take one of those that I'm not very proud of. We'll see what happens. This blog will be a reflection of how unstructured and haphazard my everyday life is. And hopefully I will learn more about myself by doing it that way as well.